forgotten

This is indeed a forgotten world...
A world where no one dare to enter..
I'm sick and tired of everything...be it mentally/ physically.. !!! I'm just plainly tired ! nothing much ~~ What can i do ? I'm really really sick and tired of life ...

tired

I'm tired from trying. Stress physically!! Can someone pls tell me what to do?! can someone please help me?!! Seriously?!! muscle tear!!! that means i have to stop my cca? how can i cure it? What should i do to make to recover?! Ppl keep calling me to go for cca but i told them that i cant. In the end, i went there and i ran like 15 rounds and aft i rch home, it got worse. 2 days past and i still feel the pain... HOWW?!! They dun underestand and they keep saying i slack
and didnt put in effort?!! Why cant they just underestand the seriousness of it?!! Now i have difficulity walking?! I'm lost and i need advice! What can i do to make it recover? I really wann to train and i miss out alot of things and tha ppl are progressing AND i'm lagging..
Nobodys underestand how much i wanted to train and the love i have for my cca... i really feel like crying.. : (( The saddist news!!

:Z What should i do to cure it ? What type of treatment? Is chinese physician usefull??

me

Let's be friend forever!!

tired

seriously, i'm tired frm everything...
Why am i not happy at all?? Why do you have to exclude me frm everything??

i'm always telling myself that's it's ok.
We were born alone and eventually, we'll die alone...

It's ok to have no friend, cause when we grow up to be adult and even housewife, all we'll have is our family... no friend...

so it's ok... reallyy.. ??
i want to be ok! I keep telling myself that it's ok but why am i not even convincing myself??!!

Hate this kind of feeling!!

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No feeling...

Tired- Sadded

sadded , sadded, pathetic life,

There's a saying that goes : You're never lonely because loneliness will always be with you.

It's totally true. I dun think i can change my fate le. Just blame it on my character than, Why am i sooo introvert. No matter how hard i try, i still cant interact with people well. And they doesnt underestand this.. They just ignore my pressence and do things or plan things without inviting me along... Without me? maybe i'm just a passer-by to thems...
I always tell myself it's ok to be lonely and even if no ones underestand you, it's also ok because in the end, you'll also be alone. It's just a matter of time.

We were born alone and we'll die alone.

It's ok, really, it;s really ok. I'll be fine and i'll definitely will... i think. People always says that i'm cheerful and i dun even underestand why?? Am i really truly happy? Am i really contented? Am i really ok with it??

i'll be fine... really...

how?

how?!! what am i suppose to do? i cant go for trainging for months? i'll lag behind. That's the things i sacred most.. I'll fail, all my effort will be gone.. and everythings gonna be over! I dun wann to lose out.

OMG !!! i think i really got muscle tear le. What should i do ?! Will it recover? I cant even lift my leg straight up. I leh cant lift! that means that i cant do front kick.!! My grading is coming too?!!
Oh My Days!! Why does all the unlucky thing always happen to me? ! I dun want to give up taekwondo, i love tkd!! Why am i always force to give up things i ,ove?

useless

Am i really that useless? Why cant i just do anythign right? Be it volleyball or taekwondo. Even my coach said that i'm a slacker. Shoold i just give up? I really cant take it anymore. All the stress?? I really want to do well in taekwondo but i just cant. No matter how much effort i put in and how many things i've sacrifice. Why cant i just do it?
The worst thing is not giving up, it is that no matter how much effort you put in and how hard you try and you still cant gain any acknowledge.
I even got muscle tear from it and i cant go for training, that's the worst. But nobody underestand. They keep telling me that it's nothing serious and that i should go for training. But i cant even lift my leg up?? I know that i'm lagging behind. I really dont knowwhat to do!I dun want to give up, really! I love tkds. Seriously. I wan to do well. But i got no speed nd power.. Everybody is doing well. It's not that i git no cinfidence, it's just that i know my own limit. Even my coach give up on me? !! Useless !! i'm just a loser! I cant do anything right!! I wann to do well! seriously i do !! There's no one to hear me out. Really?!! I wann to prove to others, but it's useless.... I REALLY DONT WANT TO GIVE UP.


What should i do? praying...

痛

你的快乐，我的痛
你的笑容，我的泪
你的不舍，我的罪

想你了

我想这因该不是爱情，因该是习惯，习惯了你的存在，习惯了你在我的身边，习惯了你的关怀，习惯了你的一切。。。 也许，我真的太自私了。。
我就是那么任性的不让你走，我这不合理的要求你会答应吗？
真的想你了，我想我真的习惯了你的存在。。


You are not him.. !! This is what i shld be clear of! You'll never be like him! You're not him!
i should'nt have treat you like him..

I'm wrong... But i cant get this feeling away! I wann the feeling ti disappear! How ?!! i really hate this kind of feeling!!
原来，那不是爱情..

放了我

如果你想我好过一点，就别再对我好，别给我多余的关心。。
就算我求你了，放过我吧！

我真的快要崩溃了。。。 在也受不了这种折磨了...

Please.. i'm really feeling terrible. I hate this kind of feeling! Just tell me, what must i do to get rid of all this feeling??

Going Bersek

None

I really hate the feeling of loving someone, espically when it's you being 一厢情愿..
It's not love, it's just that you are used to it! I really hope the feeling will go away. It's a really terrible feeling...
How i hope it will be numb... Guess i should just keep my distance away from you..
一个不可能有结局的爱情

Endless

这是个没有结局的爱情，没有开始的友情...
别在对我好了, 我会误会的. 我决不会让爱情发芽，我们之间到底是什么关系？为什么你要一次一次的伤害我？我怕我控制不了我自己，控制不了我的心。我的保户墙实在是太高了，令人无法跨越。这种过度的保户真的好吗？一种随着时间而产生的自我保护。连我自己也不知道为什么，你又怎么会知到呢？我的伪装真的太强了，强到没人发现。
为什么会有种想哭的感觉呢？