Till now, i still can't believe that i'm posted to SP !! Now, i'm finding a part time job that i can work while studying..

施舍了一切，只希望能换你会来。可是最后还是放弃你，也就等放弃我自己。。。


Hopeless...

Happy birthday

Yeah... My birthday is coming!!! gonna be 18 this year : ))
But i guess i'll be celebrating it alone...
But it's okay... It's better for me too..

在这世上，没有人可以完全了解一个人

i guess this is really a forgotten world....
在也没有任何感觉了 ... 孤僻这两个字对我来说在也不陌生了

Can anyone really hear me? I dont wann to cry anymore...??

我的感觉已经麻木了...快乐是什么？ 痛又是多痛? 我还能做什么? 现在的我可以很确定的说我的存在根本就是多余的，又会有谁注意到我的存在？这又如何？多希望能一个人躲起来。 别再说懂我了，这样的你们会让我更痛... I'm not greedy! All i want is just to have 1 friend who truly know me.. 你们一次又一次的背叛了我对你们的信任。我是多么的恨你们！！！ 笑就代表快乐吗？ 我笑是因为我想为我想伪装我的痛苦。。。

I'm going beserk!!!!! All you know is the fake me!! Have you all every tried to underestand me? Sick and tired of everything... Running away from the reality. living in hell!!

Smile.... all i can do is smile. I swear i wont ever ever open my heart to anyone anymore! It's hopeless, i've tried. All i get back is more hurt!!!

BLEEDING HEART

当你的好朋友离你而去，变成了别人的好朋友是，你一定是在想，她抢走了你的好朋友。 但你有没有想过，是你的好朋友不要你了，是你的好朋友离开你，是你的好朋友心甘情愿跟她的。 所以我想信在这世上，没有人可以从别人的身边抢走谁...

ROCHELLE
sometime, i wondered if i never change school, will we be close friend?? I thimk i have regretted changing school. Have I ?? Will we be as close as last time? i doubt so. Seeing you living so happily makes me happy too... T^reasure your friend. Will i ever have one? I really love fitting into your life. I wanted to be part of it. But i think it's impossible. Do anyone mind telling me that whether i have a friend anot? A real one? Awill a thing called friendship ever exist in my life??

Thanks Amanda!!!
talking with you really lighten me up. You said that we are given a present and that is that we will have at least 1 trye friends in our life. It's just a matter of time. This time? Can i believe you? I'm scared of disappointment. You are lucky, you have already meet your true friends. You dont know how i envy you. Treasure everything that you have now: ) Dont be like me, : )

Hope i can meet mine soon.. Will i even have one??

240406 !!!
i'm really happy that you still remember that you still remember that day. To say the truth, it was the happiest year in my whole year of my secondary days life. Even thought you have already forgotten about me, i wont...
YOU QING WAN SUI .... Thanks for being one of my friends!~!

真心换绝情 .. I tink its true...

I have no more hope. All i hope for is able to get A2 ferr moiix o level math

today , i went shopping with my sister : )

Now, i hope for nothing , all i hope for is my studies. I wish that i can do well in it .


HOPE TO GET A1 FOR MY O LEVEL MATH.
Jia you !!!

我已经习惯了一个人的习惯。你到底有没有把我当成朋友？You totally ignore me,ignore my present. What should i say?
爱情，我不知道我是恨你还是爱你。我很矛盾.
i dont konw what should i do. I dont want to hurt you, i really do . I know the pain. BT as for you , please dont act as if you know everything. I know what to do. , so you dont have to teach me how.
Hmm... all i can say is .. "i'm sorry." ...

Does the way people look at you matter. 别人的眼光对你来说真的有那么重要吗？你真的就那么在乎吗？今天，我还以为你会回来，谁知道你又让我失望。你有没有想过我的感受？在你最需要我的时候我在哪，就在你身边。那你呢？在我最需要你的时候你有在哪，连一个人影都没有。你要我帮你，我就尽我最大的能力。你现在也知道那种感受了吗？你现在知道我的痛苦了吗？需要我帮忙的时候就对我特别的好，不需要我的时候就把我当成是莫生人。你很过分。
是恨还是悲？
你的所做所为，你有反省过吗？
你到底把我当成是什么？代替品吗，还是你的玩伴 ？