i guess this is really a forgotten world....
在也没有任何感觉了 ... 孤僻这两个字对我来说在也不陌生了

Can anyone really hear me? I dont wann to cry anymore...??

我的感觉已经麻木了...快乐是什么？ 痛又是多痛? 我还能做什么? 现在的我可以很确定的说我的存在根本就是多余的，又会有谁注意到我的存在？这又如何？多希望能一个人躲起来。 别再说懂我了，这样的你们会让我更痛... I'm not greedy! All i want is just to have 1 friend who truly know me.. 你们一次又一次的背叛了我对你们的信任。我是多么的恨你们！！！ 笑就代表快乐吗？ 我笑是因为我想为我想伪装我的痛苦。。。

I'm going beserk!!!!! All you know is the fake me!! Have you all every tried to underestand me? Sick and tired of everything... Running away from the reality. living in hell!!

Smile.... all i can do is smile. I swear i wont ever ever open my heart to anyone anymore! It's hopeless, i've tried. All i get back is more hurt!!!

BLEEDING HEART

当你的好朋友离你而去，变成了别人的好朋友是，你一定是在想，她抢走了你的好朋友。 但你有没有想过，是你的好朋友不要你了，是你的好朋友离开你，是你的好朋友心甘情愿跟她的。 所以我想信在这世上，没有人可以从别人的身边抢走谁...

ROCHELLE
sometime, i wondered if i never change school, will we be close friend?? I thimk i have regretted changing school. Have I ?? Will we be as close as last time? i doubt so. Seeing you living so happily makes me happy too... T^reasure your friend. Will i ever have one? I really love fitting into your life. I wanted to be part of it. But i think it's impossible. Do anyone mind telling me that whether i have a friend anot? A real one? Awill a thing called friendship ever exist in my life??

Thanks Amanda!!!
talking with you really lighten me up. You said that we are given a present and that is that we will have at least 1 trye friends in our life. It's just a matter of time. This time? Can i believe you? I'm scared of disappointment. You are lucky, you have already meet your true friends. You dont know how i envy you. Treasure everything that you have now: ) Dont be like me, : )

Hope i can meet mine soon.. Will i even have one??

240406 !!!
i'm really happy that you still remember that you still remember that day. To say the truth, it was the happiest year in my whole year of my secondary days life. Even thought you have already forgotten about me, i wont...
YOU QING WAN SUI .... Thanks for being one of my friends!~!

真心换绝情 .. I tink its true...

I have no more hope. All i hope for is able to get A2 ferr moiix o level math

today , i went shopping with my sister : )

Now, i hope for nothing , all i hope for is my studies. I wish that i can do well in it .


HOPE TO GET A1 FOR MY O LEVEL MATH.
Jia you !!!

我已经习惯了一个人的习惯。你到底有没有把我当成朋友？You totally ignore me,ignore my present. What should i say?
爱情，我不知道我是恨你还是爱你。我很矛盾.
i dont konw what should i do. I dont want to hurt you, i really do . I know the pain. BT as for you , please dont act as if you know everything. I know what to do. , so you dont have to teach me how.
Hmm... all i can say is .. "i'm sorry." ...

Does the way people look at you matter. 别人的眼光对你来说真的有那么重要吗？你真的就那么在乎吗？今天，我还以为你会回来，谁知道你又让我失望。你有没有想过我的感受？在你最需要我的时候我在哪，就在你身边。那你呢？在我最需要你的时候你有在哪，连一个人影都没有。你要我帮你，我就尽我最大的能力。你现在也知道那种感受了吗？你现在知道我的痛苦了吗？需要我帮忙的时候就对我特别的好，不需要我的时候就把我当成是莫生人。你很过分。
是恨还是悲？
你的所做所为，你有反省过吗？
你到底把我当成是什么？代替品吗，还是你的玩伴 ？

Actually the time we spent with our family members is the most true. That is the only time when i feel happy and really needed. 1 of my friend msg miiex and tell miiex dat she is gonna tell miiex sumtink, wonder if it is a good ir bad news. Hope that it is a good news. Is she coming back to me? The friend who habx once enter moiix world,my heart? or is she gonna 彻彻底底 de leave my world? I wonder : ) Whether it is good or bad, i hope that it will be the most true feelings she have. Hope that she will not hide anything infront of me and tell me her feelings that she had hidden within her.I'm willing to accpet anything , as long as it is true

Today was a raining day ... Hmm, what's e real world? Friends, what is dat ? is my defination of Friends wrong? 朋友，这世界有没有真正的朋友？我真的搞不懂你们，以下只好，以下只又很怪，你们的世界完全和我的不一样，你们那复杂的世界根本都不适合我。你们那复杂，冲满背叛，敷衍，谎言的世界我不要。你们常常都叫我出去，但是我不想去，也不要去。 Am i the one who have changed or are you all the ones who changed? 在我面前你们都对我很好，但是在我的后面呢？你们又在说我的什么坏话呢？你们跟本就是双面人。到底你们想我怎样？ 我的存在有人发现过吗？难道对你们来说我的存在根本就是多余的呢？我的存在不被肯定，我到底对你们来说是什么？我想一个人的世界或许会比较好吧，至少那里没有背叛，敷衍，谎言。 我因该会比较开心吧，我想也是吧。我不讨厌你们，只是你们一次有一次的伤害我，令我一次有一次的受伤，一次又一次的感到痛苦。I think i'll be happier alone。每人了解我，你们只懂我的快乐，却不懂我伤心的时候。感情是不用每一次都要表现出来的那些感情是可以藏在心底的。我说我不开心的时候你们说会陪我，我先听住好了，因为你们每次都骗我。你们说你懂，但其实你们不懂。有时候装懂比不懂更会伤人。有些事情是不用解释的，解释就是不信任的开始。我真的有哪么悲哀吗？难道这就是我的命运，一个不管我多么努力也改不掉的命运。安慰的话我也懂。
难道这世上真的没有了解我的人吗

寂寞，
大家都因该会感到寂寞吧，
一个人的生活也因该不错吧，
我会习惯的，
我一定会，
因为我没有选着，
所以我一定要，
我不寂寞，
我想因该是吧